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Lone wolf · Anonymous

Hello, I am a 17 year old male and have just found the name of my illness.
its caused me alot of trouble through out my life, I used to get myself kicked of of school on purpose just so I wouldn't have to go, I used to try to hide from everyone cause I didn't want to be bothered or seen, I dropped out and am now living a life of solitude. My mom and dad complain about me doing nothing with my life and say I should have a drivers license and job by now, sometimes I wake up and tell myself I'm gonna go walk around, and I'm goning to go jog around the football feild or something just to get out of the house but I always end up doing nothing I've been drinkin to try to cope with the lonelyness I feel from not havin a girlfriend or friends at that, I say to myself my 40 is my only friend but I'd rather have real friends. I find it easyer to jus not think at all and force myself to do sumthing instead of sitting there thinking about whats gonna happen I'm jus going do it I'm not gonna let this thing control me anymore If I can't beat it on my own I will seek help. I've read almost everything on this site and to tell the truth it kinda scares me, but I know what I have to do and thats fight, I walked outside to see if my cat was around and I keep my head up high thats a start I guess, next is mow the lawn. I'm going to get out and confront this enemy as much as I can I jus hope it will die...

FeelSoLow · Anonymous

Thanks for posting!

I have social phobia (haven't been to a doctor or anything but I'm smart enough to know that I have it). I'm 16 years old and I think I've had it for about 1½ years or so.
It was like I just woke up one morning and was scared.
Because of my phobia I hate school, though I still go. I can only talk in front of the class when I'm feeling really good. I'd probably throw up if I was forced to talk on a bad day.
Sometimes I can't even eat with other people. I don't know why. It's like running naked on the street for me.
I haven't told anyone about this. They know I don't feel very good but it's much worse than they think.
I don't feel motivated at all. Everything sucks. But I REALLY don't wanna be like that. I wanna be my old self.
Me now and me two years ago are not the same person. I used to be self-confident and didn't have any problems.

..may post some more later.

Bobby · Calm Regular Joined: 17 Feb 2007 Posts: 57

Same with me. I don't have a job or driver's license despite that everyone else my age does.