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Bravetailor · Calm Regular Joined: 18 Mar 2008 Posts: 55

Me, I think one of my problems is that there has never been a history of winning or ambition in my past. I was never the most hard working or most athletic person in my class, never anywhere close. I hesitate to use the word "smart" because I feel I'm competitive with most people when it comes to learning things but I've often been disinterested in learning unless I really want to. My grades were always good or at worst passable, but I never had the desire to be great. I was "satisfied" with my life back since at the time, I had friends, hobbies and I was content.

Now that's catching up to me. I have no history to fall back on when I need a reminder that I'm capable of being better when I need to be.

I realize that, perhaps, I need to accomplish more, but at this point in time, it's tough to find situations to do that. But it seems almost unheard of for someone with little ambition or competitiveness early in life to gain it later in life. That said, it's one of the few things I have keeping me going right now, which is surprising.

Bobby · Calm Regular Joined: 17 Feb 2007 Posts: 57

I made it into a selective highschool. However once there, I was just as smart as everyone else so I was mediocre. I was, however, relatively good at sport compared to my classmates, but then that deterioated once I hit year 11, as nobody had time to play.

In terms of my job, it is just average. I wish I had a better job, but I will need to stick with the one I have for a while to gain experience.