TommyGavin SAF Peasant

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Joined: 03 Sep 2007 Posts: 4
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Posted: Mon September 03, 2007 Post subject: Hello. I just signed up... |
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Hello, everyone. I joined this forum in hopes of helping me deal with what I believe to be social anxiety. I recently turned 32 and I feel that my life is passing me by. I have an aversion to going out with friends. My main excuse is money, and I'll explain later how that has affected me from my teenage years growing up. Even though I may spend less than ten dollars, the fact that I don't have much on me will hold me back. I'm a salesman, but make enough to get by, and I want more than that. As far as love, I've only experienced it twice. I have major self-esteem issues. I'm overweight...not a butterball, but I do have a gut and a big, fat head. I try to find the desire to hit the gym, but sometimes it's hard. Usually, I just sit at home after work. I've drifted away from friends thanks to this behavior. I feel embarrassed to let them know that I have this "disorder". It has prevented me from meeting girls successfully and having a girlfriend these past six years. I talk to them, but can't push it further because I think they lose interest in me because of my body, my lack of disposable income, or something else.
So I am dedicating the month as the start of the end of my destructive behaviors. I will force myself to hit the gym 5 times a week, eat sparingly, down a lot of protein shakes and water, study how to be more confident around girls, improve my sales success, and just destroy the old me. Of course, planning is the easy part. The execution is the hardest.
I will post here to let you know how I'm doing as well as hopefully garner advice, feedback, criticism, etc. Maybe you can keep me honest about keeping my goals. I'm walking through hell to reach my personal paradise. Moving out... |
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